Hey guys! :D
I feel pretty good today~
lately i've been doing so much stuff and being really productive.
Meeting new faces, but that's not the real kick. I found what i was looking for, for a really long time :3
college is a different experience for me, my whole senior year taught me so much. really. i'm growing exponentially. and really, i still am.
I used to be so very timid before; stay in the back and observe. I used to like all the cool things i somewhat despise now, I used to think a few special things, were really special.
i now know that you must give to get, that most people are just as afraid as you.
I read a quote the other month, it said;
"People will forget you, and forget the things you do,
but they will never- forget the way you made them feel"
And at first, that didn't really strike anything to me until a while ago. I really don't have that much reflection time anymore, i used to daydream so much, doze off and think about things, or go off into these scenarios without thinking about it. I sorta miss it, but nowadays i've been dabbling in too much community based stuff. I'm having too many distractions: people, my pokemon, my fish, the community online, real life friends, new college buddies!, school, and the future.
And even though i enjoy doing these things, i really really miss having so much free time. It's why i had so much fun while farming. It was the pride of growing my own food, and having time to think about stuff, instead of studying or playing gameboy. I really am a kind addict to stat-gaining. those useless stats are nothing to me, but i spend so much time perfecting them.
-Back to the point however, I found what i've always wanted :3 someone to spend time with. And i know it doesn't really make sense while you're reading it. But it won't make sense unless you know how i've spent my whole life.
That sounds awfully dramatic, but it really isn't! i just can't find the perfect words.
ANYWAYSS, the real point of this blog is that although i'm really happy, i do feel a pang of sadness because not everyone wants to be around me. It's a little rotten of me to want to be so wanted, especially if you like to spend a lot of your time alone.
At the start of the school year i sat with someone every lunch time, and every dinner time. I really surprised myself by getting to know so many people. But lately I've eaten on a table by myself. On friday i ate by myself [:
I had a great time reflecting.
So there's this girl i like, well, i can't say i like her thaaaat much, but i know i want to spend more time with her than i do now. but i can tell she's bored of me :\
ay adai, can you believe that? well, i can. i'm not a very interesting person really.
anyways, i'm just thinking whether i should harass her more, or work on impressing her, or just stay away :3
even so, life moves on, and there's this hot girl :D
well, she's not that hot, but she's pretty, and she does art; she sounds like an interesting person. I make it a point to not say i like a person before getting to know them, but it's safe to say she's verryyy likeable.
to end, i'm sorry for making really blocky paragraphs, it's been a while since i've written stuff other than text messages, youtube comments, forum posts, and instant messages. also, the capitalizations and grammar rules that i follow are inconsistent. I'll make my posts here a lot more formal, and they'll all adhere to grammar, unlike my other blogs [:
-jase