Resisting all temptation to be an attention whore, i'm here, writing at my last resort of a blog.

I've thought it'd be cool to have a blog that was read by people you know? have subscribers, the sorts.

But i actually.. sort of.. like it. a bit, to not have my babbles scrutinized and examined. stalked, you know, read.

This is probably going to be another ill written post that i save and never publish, but hey? this is a public diary. no, more than that, this is mine, my plurality of thoughts.

And my thoughts will come back to me when i'm ready for them in a few years.

come to think about it, not only am i here writing a halfassed blog, but i'm here again, needing to do homework, write a report, do a paper. do multiple.. papers.
but i can't bring myself to do it. my priorities.. i just can't
i c a n t d o i t

nonono, it's too hard. i must leave, i can't leave, i wanna stay.
nononono, it's a strain. i have to stay, but i can't stay, i want to leave,
whywhy? because i want to know you. i haven't met you, but i will, if i wait
but why? because i've known you, but i've left you, and till i don't, i'll lose you


i don't know. i don't know. can you tell me?
can you s t o p telling me? i need some time. i need some priorities.
i need to grow up. can i grow up?

does the world have room for one who gives up?

man. i can't see the finish line anymore. there's too much fog.
i just want.. an easier course.
but that's not true, because my course has been easy, it always has
i
just
want
so
much
more
than
that
which
was
given
to me


hell. this is a confusing post.
i'm just so conflicted.

How about you?

Have you ever really thought about it?
It's hard, you know? Putting your feelings into thoughts.
I guess... That's what books are for, they're excellent in teaching you your feelings.
Feelings are.. invisible, you know?

Movies, they're for showmanship. Tvshows, they show you how to express yourself. But Books, they teach you how to talk.

So, in essence, to talk, you must read.
God.. I'm not even making sense anymore.
I'm just gonna

Duuuuude

Maybe i should, maybe i shouldn't.

I'm feeling tired.