Resisting all temptation to be an attention whore, i'm here, writing at my last resort of a blog.
I've thought it'd be cool to have a blog that was read by people you know? have subscribers, the sorts.
But i actually.. sort of.. like it. a bit, to not have my babbles scrutinized and examined. stalked, you know, read.
This is probably going to be another ill written post that i save and never publish, but hey? this is a public diary. no, more than that, this is mine, my plurality of thoughts.
And my thoughts will come back to me when i'm ready for them in a few years.
come to think about it, not only am i here writing a halfassed blog, but i'm here again, needing to do homework, write a report, do a paper. do multiple.. papers.
but i can't bring myself to do it. my priorities.. i just can't
i c a n t d o i t
nonono, it's too hard. i must leave, i can't leave, i wanna stay.
nononono, it's a strain. i have to stay, but i can't stay, i want to leave,
whywhy? because i want to know you. i haven't met you, but i will, if i wait
but why? because i've known you, but i've left you, and till i don't, i'll lose you
i don't know. i don't know. can you tell me?
can you s t o p telling me? i need some time. i need some priorities.
i need to grow up. can i grow up?
does the world have room for one who gives up?
man. i can't see the finish line anymore. there's too much fog.
i just want.. an easier course.
but that's not true, because my course has been easy, it always has
i
just
want
so
much
more
than
that
which
was
given
to me
hell. this is a confusing post.
i'm just so conflicted.