I'm a little messed up right now.

I do feel quite guilty for not making blogs enough. You readers be driven mad that my blog sucks. In fact, I feel somewhat nauseated by almost every previous post. I hate my last one.
I just.. Don't feel right, you know? I don't have that feeling one gets when they feel like they have something great to say.

Aside from that hushhush, I'm really messed up right now. It's as if she took a crap all over my confidence. I'm a little desperate right now, I'm not sure if you can tell when you see or talk to me; but inside there's a big turmoil. I want to be noticed and I want to be loved. I don't even want to try to deserve it. I just want it to be unwarranted.

I know that's not even remote to what I used to want, you know? Actually, that's probably not what I want now either. But I feel that sometimes (all the time) -exaggeration-

I think I'm good enough to perform some musics on youtube. I think I shall start using my time for a little more productive things, at least then I'll have something to look back to. I think I'll attach this little blog to facebook and gaia. If you're reading this though, this blog really isn't about my life. It's about my thoughts, although some life does pass through some times.